Journey into a dream

Let's start with the meme, that's easiest:

3. Do you crosspost? Why or why not?
I do crosspost my reviews, because I think there's a good chance that at least some people over on LJ care about those. I don't crosspost the rest... may be because I am not ready to share. Most of my journeys contain more failure than success at times (or at least that's how it feels) and I often just need to rant. I don't really need kind advice on how to do things differently and just need... a rant, a deep breath and to get up and try again. Also, I do feel that my friend's list might be a bit fed up with my constant whining and trying, so I'll keep it here for me. Oh and I know that I never read fiction on my friends list, mainly because people on my friend's list aren't particularly great fiction writers (don't tell them), so I feel it is unfair to impose my bad fiction on them. I still would like to keep it in the public realm in case someone can be bothered to read it and give me constructive criticism.

On a slightly less general note - I have an exam the day after tomorrow and I have really, really failed at studying so far. I've tried, but first I got a flu, then my period and then the worst cold I had in ages (with hot and cold flushes and a temperature, I kid you not - you don't feel that a cold should do this stuff!) and since my cold has transformed from a cold of doom to just a standard cold of annoyingness my stomach has been acting up. I am getting a little bit frustrated. Today for example, I suddenly got a massive hunger attack at 4 in the afternoon. Not just "Oh, I am peckish, I could do with a snack", but "I AM STARVING!!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE HAD BOTH BREAKFAST AND LUNCH?! THAT IS CLEARLY A LIE FOR I AM S.T.A.R.V.I.N.G.!!!!!!!!!11!". I thought may be it was my blood pressure taking a dive and my body responding, so I had a bowl of cereals with berries, thinking that it would provide carbohydrates, sugar and vitamins, the combination of which should fix it. Nope. After bowl of cereals I was still starving. So, after sitting about for a bit, hoping my body was just slow in realizing we literally JUST had food, I went and made sandwiches. I gobbled down the sandwiches as if I hadn't eaten in a week and after the last one... I started feeling really, really sick. What the hell?

One digestion tablet and two cups of tea later I was back at revision, but couldn't concentrate at all, because I was feeling sick. I wondered if some movement would help. I mean revision time isn't ideal for movement, so may be my blood pressure was protesting the exciting daily running track from the bed to the sofa, from the sofa to the bathroom and from there to the study and back? So, off I went and did 20 minutes of Zumba thinking that it would either tip my sickness into outright throwing up - which would solve the problem - or get my blood pressure going - which should also at least help solve the problem. I survived Zumba alright and all the movement even made me forget about my stomach...

Obviously not having thrown up, I drink some water afterwards and... guess what? I FEEL SICK AGAIN! My stomach can handle excessive wiggly action of latin goodness, but no a glass of water? I am so confused D:

Anyway, I shall have a shower and see what happens, but I have to get back to revision, as I really haven't done much and am not looking forward to the exam. Not to mention that I haven't even started revising for the exam two days after that >.>

Meme nicked from martyna.

Day 1: Why did you sign up for Dreamwidth?

Mainly because of the LiveJournal outage, I will be honest. I was getting really fed up with not knowing if I would be able to access my journal today or not. I also decided that I wanted to get a bit more consistent at keeping up with my various self improvement plans and it would be good to have a place where I could pool everything without bothering my friends too much. May be I also wanted to know what all the fuss was about, as at least my LJ friends list has gotten more and more inactive and I was wondering if some of them wandered over to here. I am pretty much only reading communities these days, which is a bit sad, but also means there isn't that much keeping me on LJ. Turns out my friends are not really here, but have just turned off blogging all together and instead are now pooling around facebook. Bother.